Thursday November 15, 2007

My life, this past week, can be summed up in one word; crying.  Lots of crying.  Both of the boys have spent the better part of this week hanging on my legs and crying.  I’ve given up trying to think of reasons (teething? getting sick? manipulating?)  and have simply surrendered my sanity.  Yesterday, when I looked at them both laying on the floor sobbing; I was sorely tempted to join them.  Later on that day, I put them in their car seats and headed to Walmart, and I realized that for the first time I was hearing nothing….just silence.  I thought to myself, “What would happen if I just drove around until their Dad comes home?”.

This morning when he pulled at my hand and said, “Mommy come sit and play with me.”.  I decided that was an excellent idea.

He was feeding me donuts.  His brother though that the donuts were pretty tasty.

As I sat on the floor with them, I started remembering.  I remembered that I really do like my children. I remembered to be thankful that their problems are still simple.  No problem is so big, that a snuggle with a blanket in mommy’s lap, won’t fix it. It won’t always be that way.  I reminded myself that they are small only for a short time.

It isn’t an easy thing; living today with the future in mind.  To really understand that even these hard days,  will one day be missed.  I have to remind myself, that the things I do each day are molding and shaping them into the people they will become.

It is hard to live with my feet planted on the ground but my mind pointed towards heaven.  I am not home yet.  I am a traveler; I need to travel light.

But as it is, they desired a better country, that is a heavenly one.  Therefore God is not ashamed to be their God; for He has prepared a city for them.  Hebrews 11:16

3 thoughts on “Thursday November 15, 2007

  1. H0LDfast

    i read that verse this morning. sorry about the long week . . . really. i had my cry this afternoon : ) it helped. good job remembering, i sat with mush-pot benny and his blankie this morning trying to remember those things too . . . .

    i sent you a message about saturday. love you!!!

  2. manuelmusings

    When they are eight and ten these days will be a distant memory — it’s just getting to that point with your mind in-tact.  It is true that the types of problems change with age and are harder to solve but it helps that there are fewer physical demands.  FYI — they still enjoy and need cuddling when they are big but sitting on the lap is no longer an option!!

  3. celebration_of_life

    You know when people tell me “just enjoy them it will go so fast” I have to trust they know what they are talking about…sometimes it just doesn’t seem like it does it. I think that God knew we would burn out at parents if our kids weren’t moving from one stage to the next…thanks for reminding me to “travel light” and enjoy the journey God has us on. May your days be brighter and good for you for going to sit and play…I am sure your list of things to do did not disappear while eating donuts:)


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